Thursday, September 29, 2011

defending my silver lining

Lately I think I have been subconsciously (...or not so subconsciously) been evaluating my friendships. There aren't any secret spreadsheets with scores or a hit list or anything. But due to the fact that I've needed a little extra support as of late, there has been some extra thought on my part into what true friendship really is to me.

Thankfully, everyone has passed with flying colors. I am so impressed with the people in my life and how much they are willing to do for me. There have been late night conversations, mutual confessions, complete lack of judgement, random texts to check in, tearful understandings, a look of comfort, grins because of a shared secret, proud moments, conversations over food, hugs that mean something a little more, fits of laughter and meaningful reunions.

I very strongly hold to the belief that good friends are really just an extension of your family. They're different from your biological family in the sense that more often then not they hear the crazy confessions you have, give you your daily affirmations, and participate in conversations you wouldn't dare have with your parents quite yet.
Annie's suggested "family" on facebook
I'm being a little sentimental but, it's just one of those times when you realize how special things really are in your life. So I'm using this forum to thank my friends from the bottom of my heart. For their love, their support and their understanding.

And to those not pictured, I still love you, it just implies we need to take more pictures.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Just Because

Yesterday was a good day just because.

Just because I finished all my homework on time.
Just because I felt good about my outfit.
Just because I got out of 2 of my classes early.
Just because I made worthwhile comments in class.
Just because I sat outside with Katherine eating lunch.
Just because the weather was beautiful (and has been all week).
Just because I got a brownie in class.
Just because Annie called to see if I wanted some cinnamon bears.
Just because I ran into Tanner on campus.
Just because I got all my groceries for $25 using a student discount.
Just because I got free dinner at a barbeque.
Just because I thought I discreetly played a prank but got caught.
Just because I met people I only saw pictures of in London.
Just because Grey's Anatomy started.
Just because I have great friends who will talk to me when I'm freaking out.

Yesterday was a good day just because. 

Sunday, September 18, 2011

reunited and it feels so good

 This weekend we had a reunion of sorts. We were mostly celebrating Collin (Go Elder Dursteler!) but it was a great excuse to get together and reminisce. Because we don't do it enough. *insert eye roll here* It's pretty incredible how we snap right back into our London friendships. It'll happen again soon. The only downside to these reunions is that it makes me miss everyone and study abroad all over again!

I miss us. 

Thursday, September 15, 2011

the good and the bad

Some habits I've picked up since being back at school:


  • Showering and really getting ready before an 8am class.
  • Stepping out of my comfort zone (i.e. going to events alone; collaborated with teachers; helped teach a class; commented more in classes-- yes. this is a big deal.)
  • Using excessive amounts of post-it notes to keep track of my life
  • Trying to plan out my life (meetings with academic advisors, signing up for clubs, researching options)
  • Forgetting to turn off the sink in the bathroom... not sure where that one came from.
  • Eating excessive amounts of chocolate covered cinnamon bears
  • Procrastinating homework to watch Friends marathons and keep up to date on blogs
I'm sure it all work out :)

On another note, I hope my mom and dad are okay without me:

Sunday, September 11, 2011

ten years ago today...

Every year on September 11th, everyone has a moment to remember what happened one morning ten years ago. I think it brings a little twinge of patriotism and a pause to think about where you were. 

Personally, I remember that day (as everyone does). Every detail of that day. I remember a kindergardener telling me what happened, and my mom explaining it later on our walk home from the bus stop. I remember my classmates getting pulled out of class, and my counselor telling me it was just a beautiful day for people to be with their kids so we wouldn't freak out. I remember sitting in front of the tv watching the same thing over and over again. I remember hearing about my friends parents who were working downtown or sitting on a plane somewhere. I remember the confusion. 

But more so than anything else, I remember what happened after that. There was a silence and an eerie calm, but then peoples flags were outside. Our neighborhood had small flags at every mailbox. There was a shared sense of patriotism that we all felt. 

The word patriotism evokes images of red, white and blue. I think of barbeques and fireworks. I think of the pledge of allegiance and flags. But I think on that day it meant so much more and has continued to have a deeper meaning since. 

It's a shared identity. A shared cause. A shared appreciation. And a shared emotion. 

It unites us. We are one nation under God. 

Since 9/11, patriotic songs make me tear up. Seeing flags lining the outside of a neighborhood makes me smile. Hearing stories of peoples lives and how it has affected them makes me appreciate so much the patriotism we share. 

People will always have varying opinions about politics and different ideals but I think that 9/11 truly brought out the values that we all share and that is what we need to remember. 

Here are, so far, some of my favorite 9/11 commemorations:

Thursday, September 1, 2011

back to school to prove to dad that i'm not a fool

School's officially started.
I have my permanent pen smear on my right hand.
My planner is overwhelmed with post-it notes.
I'm exhausted.
I'm already behind on reading.
I have an 8am class that will likely kill me.

But, all is well.
I have so far showered everyday. (and even brushed my hair!)
I love being back at BYU taking classes in my major.
I'm figuring out what to do with my life... slowly.
I forgot how lovely my friends are.
I've only worked on one homework assignment during class.
We bid adieu to our dear Quincy by dropping her off at the MTC.
My job is awesome- I get paid to learn, it's fantastic!
Katherine and I have already procrastinated together.
Julie's hacked my facebook.
Utah's kinda pretty, I admit it. Why I have a fascination with clouds, I haven't figured out yet.

Happy Fall Semester everybody! Let's hope I keep showering :)
Also, I think the real way to kick off a new school year is to watch Billy Madison.
More specifically to sing this song...